I am doing better.... I am finding that the more I realize "WE" are not who we used to be. The better. I can talk to him , he will listen and we arent the same people we were before the BOMB. It is still hard but he isnt the same and I can say things I could have never said before. He makes me feel x, y or z but now I can actually call him on it ... So me shutting down isnt helpful.... talking is. I havent stated my fears { he used to cheat and go out alot.. etc etc etc...} I will work thru those.
I have stated however that his moods are affecting me and that is he wants me to be happy this is not the way to get it...
