I gave in to emotion. I sent an e-mail this morning that I shouldn't have---and I know it. But in his last e-mail to me he told me he wasn't going to sit by and let me spend money on our home remodel, and also be in charge of how often he sees his kids. I replied by telling him that I am not a free-loading b****, and I had no idea that expenditure on our home remodel was in anyway tied to how often he sees OUR kids. I told him that he doesn't get it both ways either----he doesn't get to play the role of the persecuted father being cheated out of time with his kids while at the same time living another life with another woman. I again made it clear that our kids are not at fault and I WILL not and have not tried to keep them from him. I told him he could take over all the decision making with the home remodel. I reminded him that THIS was his choice, THIS is what he wanted. I also added that I wasn't giving up, that I value our marriage, our history and our family and that I still love him-----I know, the evil L word.
I know it was not productive, but most likely caused a lot of damage. I do not expect a response. If I get one, I'm sure it will be hateful. I sent it. It's done. Whatever.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
