Ha - funny Naej, yeah but I can be neurotic, I'm nowhere near as bad as I used to be, thankfully.
BND - thanks very much for that. I recognise alot of that, I haven't tried to fix anything for him in the past 6 months, I have changed myself and been to weekly C. I know I am powerless, I cant control and I definetly havent judged (until last night !). But some I'm not doing (like living day to day) and I have been living in the past and taking his actions as to do with me, which they arent.
So today is 9 months since he moved out, feels like we have reached full term. I woke up and realised that he has moved on. He said he had at the bomb, but clearly, he couldnt walk away after all those years without still spending time with me. We always were such good friends and didnt have an acrimonious split, so I suppose its fair enough. I am confused as to why he would put me through it though, maybe he had no idea I was still in love with him...or thought he was helping by being there for me this summer, I dont know.
