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[HopefultotheEnd]

I'm in the Northern part of the SF bay area.

This is a roller coaster for sure. My peaks and vallies are frequent but much more shallow than they once were. (hey, that kinda rhymes.)

I had a minor break in my LRT tonight. W and I were discussing our scary finances and figuring out how we were going to take D9 to school this year when she says that she has been depressed lately. I try to validate her feelings and switch the subject when she goes on to say that she is lonely and stressed etc. As I listened to her I just couldn't stop myself from walking up to her. When she finished I said, "Well, you should go before I hug you." I then backed away a step. She said, "Hug me." So I did.

I'm not really worried about it but it was a moment of weakness. I can at least bragg that I was first to let go, and from then on I was very much back-to-buisiness. I told her that I needed to get to bed and then did not follow her to the door. I said bye from the kitchen.

I knew what I was doing when I asked the question, and I knew what the answer would be. I suppose I like knowing that she still wants me to hug her. (I havn't for at least two weeks)

Nice thing is that I feel ok about it. not sad.

Anyway, I just wanted to write it down while it was still fresh.