Some days I don't think I'm doing as well as I can spin it. It can be rough. So far no amount of be being happy for myself erased the sadness that I have for the kids. My parents are still together and that is really important to me. I feel like I've failed them or at least failed to provide them with at what I had growing up.
I can't imagine her leaving the kids either. Technically I have zero custody over my stepdaughter (but I love her as my own) So I feel a bit taken advantage of.
I was thinking that it would be rough if I had to share them 50/50 that would mean being away from them for a week at a time. So now at least I pretty much get to spend time with them everyday.
I have a huge fear of missing out on stuff. Yet at the same time I have guilt for sometimes wishing I was the WAS and had the freedom that my W now enjoys.
On the other hand by her own admission and my own common sense that life is not fulfilling so I'm glad for the time I have with my kids.
Thanks, I could use some of both, advice and hugs.
Last edited by HopefultotheEnd; 08/14/0810:24 PM.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
