No, jak, I didn't tell him what my proof is, but now a new door has been opened in regard to proof, so that I need not let him know that I have access to all the calls on all the phones online. Last night S looked at his phone and told me ow's # was on it, so I am going to tell him about it being on his phone. I am prepared for him to tell me I am seeing things or am crazy.
But, the important thing, to me at any rate, is that HE will know that I know.
And I told him the other day, that no contact MEANS no contact.
I also am detaching from him somewhat, being nice, but not initiating wanting to be around him.
Last night, we went out shopping to get S some back to school gifts, and when we got back, he sat on the sofa, and I was on the other end, taking off my shoes, planning to go right back to the bedroom, but he held out his hand to me, and I asked him what he wanted, for me to pull his finger, or what. He said he wanted me to come over and sit beside him, so he could put his arm around me. Well, I let him for awhile, and then got up and went to bed.
I sometimes, even in the midst of crying and praying about this, wonder if I am beginning to in some ways to start to get over him. I hate to say that, but there is a new way I am beginning to look at him, and it makes me feel bad.
I will continue to stand for my marriage, though.
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Oh, the contract thing he suggested was about what we expect. I am thinking of getting it up, with his help, and us signing it on our 25th anniversary this fall.
