Point taken. I think my real goal is to tell her why we are not going to be having sex anymore. I don't think we are going to get anywhere on our own and we can not afford a counselor.
But, after taking a look at who I have become as a man, what she gets in the sack from me, and how I have let myself go physically (relatively speaking), her lack of drive toward me is understandable.
My personal goals are to fix all the stuff above. No More Mr. Nice Guy has been a really big help here. I see so much of myself in what he is saying. For my own piece of mind, I have got to get this fixed. Quite honestly, for the last few days I have gone back to calculating how much I am worth dead as opposed to alive. This is not a good place to be...
