Hi Where...yes, I think he is trying to get out of meeting me. And ropey is like rubbish, pants, yes! I havent seen him for 2 weeks last Wednesday, so he obviously isnt missing me. Or he's really depressed..but that doesnt explain his abscence anymore, like it did, as we had built up a raport since.
Jeff, thankyou. Its funny how someone can 'get' to you so much.
Hi naej...he was suffering from depresion before he left and basically, he is no longer looking after himself and is run down (he admits it himself). He did well to begin with cooking for himself, but I'm not so sure now. He is drinking alot and not sleeping so is very tired. He's burning the candle both ends and he is 35 next week, so cant do it anymore, thats why hes ill often or feels ill. I cant go to his place, he wont let me. I'm not sure I know what I want to say. I just feel so nervous now after not speaking to him for 8 days and not seeing him for just over 2 weeks, its like we're back at square one. I felt more sure of myself with him before, I KNEW he would call me and ask me how I was and want to meet up, as it had been taht way for several months. Now, anything goes. In fact, now, I assume we are going to NOT see each otehr, once this lease is signed.
So be it. I love him, but I give up! I thkn that will be obvious when we do meet...maybe we will end up meeting at the weekend, on that lunar eclipse. Its the end of whatever started on the eclipse Feb 1999 (our first kiss and we started dating proper as opposed to just meeting for lunch and talking about dating).
It was love at first sight for him though, back in 1996, so we have had our ups and downs over the years. A little part of me wonders if we could reunite in the future, considering our amazing synastry...but I cant see it. He may meet someone else soon, or has already, who knows.
