One other thing, the kids seem to have adjusted to the way things are. I'm the one who's lagging behind and needing to accept this is the way it is.
W is almost out of my heart. I'm not seeing anything encouraging any more so moving on is not as hard as it was a few months ago. I'm not filing right now, no need to take on more work.
Time to be still and let God do his work in my life.