Well we leave at 3:30 a.m. tonight to get on our airplane and go to florida and on a bahama's cruise. I am so excited, and my H kept saying last night again how excited he was too.
I hope that this trip goes well, with no huge problems or blow outs. We have been doing well lately, so I can imagine it will be great. We could really use this type of bonding.
Last night, I went out to my older brothers b-day party alone, my H said he didnt want to go because he would be too busy getting ready for the trip. But after an hour of me being there, my H text me and said he was gonna come watch TV at my place while I was gone.
I acted as if I didnt care that he cant bother to come around my family and makes up poor excuses to not go. When I got home I was all smiles and talked about how nice of a night it was. I think he feels bad, but he for some reason refuses to face my fam for the most part.
Oh well, I guess I got to live with it and hope that he will change over time. My family never did anything to him, I just think he cant face them after what he has done to me. I get stuck in the middle now all the time.
When we get back from our trip, the next day is my Mom's b-day. I would love for him to actually try and come to that party, but I should not get my hopes up. TIPPER
