Oh hey Where, lovely to hear from you! You're so right, I am done playing this DB game...so I am feeling very nervous. He still hasnt replied to my midday email, so more avoidance. Its time for honesty.
I think I weigh 100 pounds, maybe 98 right now. I dont have scales but I reckon I have lost half a stone, if not more. I hate being all thin and unwomanly! I just had a chocolate brownie :-)
So I dont know how to play it later, but I would like to ask him a) to meet me this weekend (doubtful) and b) why he has stopped phoning me (scary) I would also like to ask him what he is scared of (he told me 30th May that he didnt want to mess me around as he is scared, of everything. And I know he has anxiety attacks, but I dont know what about.
or..I could just tell him, I'm sorry I kept my feelings in all this time, I was being respectful of your depression and not putting my emotions on you...but the truth is I have enjoyed spending time with you these past 6 months, I still love you as much as the day you left me, you are my best friend and I miss you.
Hmm. Thats definetly a DB no-no. I really dont know how to play it, but I cant be like we were being before, with us both pretending, as that has got me nowhere. I worry that once this lease is signed, I wont see him as he's backed off, plus its his birthday next Thursday, so I bet he goes away next weekend (bank holiday)...then he will be moving away soon. So it feels like my last chance to speak to him...
I think its a last ditch Db attempt, is that the dobsons letter thing, just lay your cards on the table? I wont tonight if I can get him to agree to meet me at the weekend...I'll do it then. Advice anyone !?
