I'm trying to catch up on threads, I've been just like you & haven't been able to post to anyone else much since I found out H married OW but I'm working on it.
I'm sorry to hear of all that you are going thru. It must be mind boggling the way H is going up & down.
I wish you the best you have been so strong you just keep hanging in there.
I want to thank you also for your support for me, you have been there from the beginning & I wouldn't have made it thru this long if it hadn't been for this site.