Chapter 28 - Emergencies and winnings

[Toomanywords]

Thanks everyone. I do, honestly, truly appreciate all of the advice and information. I do take it all into consideration. I'm not turing a blind eye, I never have. I know that things with BF took off too soon after the D - and that helped in many ways and it hurt in many ways. I'm not afraid to live without him or anything. There's a history, there's a love, there's the occational spark of change and hope. I have my moments when it's all shot to heck. I have my moments when I just want to be optimistic (something XH used to say I never was, ironically).

Happy - you make a good point. I'm younger than pretty much everyone I've encountered here on the DB boards. Xh and I were 21 when we were married. We had dated for 5 years. We were M for 3 years. We were best friends, we thought we were soul mates. We lived together (obviously), we worked together - 2 seperate times, 2 seperate locations until about a year before the D. We even went to school together (different classes and majors).
Each D is similar and unique in it's own ways.

Also, when I have more mental energy I will think honestly about what changes he's made, and hasn't made since we started dating...and more importantly (to me at least), since he moved out of his mom's house. I know just on the short list, he's come a long way there. He does dishes, yard work, car work and laundry. Trust me - that's miles from where he was/what he was doing when he lived at home with his parents.



Things will work out one way or another. I'm to tired to even think too deeply about this all right now. Ha ha ha

Just as I thought I was going to get ahead with my overtime, my annual bonus, my travel pay, my bonus for special work my department did, a refund for my deposits since we're not going to Vegas...... I get a bill from the dentist, a bill from the doctor (somehow they didn't bill me for A YEAR for my previous visits).


I'm in an organizing mood. Today I was organizing reciepts and papers. I was making a list of all the places I have to call and talk to about different issues. I have to get ready for our cruise, 25 days away!


I felt good today, the friend I went on the business trip that is having problems and she doesn't know if she wants to stay or go in the marriage - I gave her my DB book




Oh - on a funny note. What I copied that my friend wrote to me - that wasn't a girlfriend. That was my gay ex-roommate, who ironically is one of BF's best friends. Sad when his own friends think like that of him, huh?

Anyways, again, too tired to think too deep about that stuff.


Thanks again. I hope you all know what a special place you all hold in my heart.