For the Guy with Kids and a WW 9

[hopeful4her]

Hi dub.

When she was telling me her story, I listened. I gave her eye contact, but that was about it. I didn't stand there and give her the convo that she was trying to have with me. Mostly my one word answers or my "Mhm" or "Mmm". Not too much else. I WANT to respond by chatting back with her, but I don't. Gave her a smile here and there as she spoke and head nods. NOT trying to be her friend for sure.

What I meant about the heartache...

I meant that it is hard to WATCH someone struggle and writhe in pain. Like seeing a deer hit by a car. You feel helpless. You can only uplift in written word. THATS hard. Frustrating actually.

Not inviting her for dinner. I was going to have to make a lot of chicken tonight. She is bringing S14 over to stay with me for 2 days. I doubted that she was going to be here by the time we ate. I would ask her if she wanted something to eat. Thats all. If I do get a chance for the Retro stuff, I will. I probably will.

I am doing much better today. Like I posted before yours, sometimes it is easy to depress yourself. Stinkin' thinkin', like H4U likes to say.



On the way home, talking to D11, I get a call from S14. He needs his moms cell phone number. He still hasn't put it in his phone. I ask him what the plan is.
"Moms going to take me when she gets off of work, and then we're going to have dinner."
"What do you mean?"
"Mom's going to make dinner and take it."
"Oh really. I was going to cook chicken tonight. Why is she doing that?"
"I dunno. I have to go, ok. I'll see you later, dad."
"Alright."

Go back to D11 thinking WTH and then GBG calls her. D11 comes back and says she couldn't hear her mom on the phone. Then GBG calls me. Like 20 seconds later.

"Hi. I tried to call Amanda but she couldn't hear me."
"I have her on the line now. Must be a system thing or something. Miguel said the same thing."
"I am going to take Miguel to the house after I get out of here. I cooked a roast, so I thought we could have dinner there."
"I was going to cook chicken tonight."
"Well.. no, just save it. I'll bring dinner, ok?"
"ok."
"okay, then I'll see you later."
"Bye."

???????

Should I have declined? Told her that I have dinner covered? She must have it in the crock pot.

She F'ing threw me off. All I could say was 'ok'. First thing I could think of was 'If I tell her no, is this going to help or hurt?' On the way home, my mind was going a 100 mph.

'Does she think I'm not up to task on taking care of the girls? Does she think that I have no food? Do I ask her why she is doing this? Do I ask her if OM is going to get jealous?' (thats my sarcastic voice)

It just came out. 'ok'. SH*T! I was discombobulated.

Maybe I AM supposed to give her the info tonight? A sign that we were both thinking dinner?

I don't know.

Thoughts?