Thanks Jeff, I do need to call about the lease, thats why I called! I cant believe he's ignoring me.
BA..thankyou. The writing was on the wall, I said so didnt I. I feel sick and havent eaten again. Its grief and also the rejection and so very painful. Damn eclipses.
Naej - thanks so much for taking the trouble and dont worry, you werent speaking harshly, you are right. I cant believe he could be so cruel. I cant believe he could be such a coward. I cant fathom what an earth I have done to him that would warrant such appalling treatment. He must know how upset and hurt I am, thats why he's ignoring me. To put me through hell a second time...
I'm very angry and hurt, but I dont want to get angry at him. I do though now have an overwhelming burning desire to have it out with him. I want to ask him if he was conscious of what he was doing, that he was calling me most nights and how to withdraw that 'friendship' has been incredibly hard on me. I want to tell him that he is very strong, that it is not true that he is weak and that he was wrong when he said at the bomb "you would have talked me round, I'm weak" - hes been very strong, stronger than me. I'm astounded at how determined he has been to destroy our relationship, even our friendship.
I could turn up on his door tommorow or Friday, but I wont, I will wait and see what he does (nothing I bet) over the next 2 days. Its that lunar eclipse on Saturday, it will bring matters since February to a conclusion and illuminate any duplicitous or things that have been hidden or are an illsion..as it is conjucnt Neptune, the planet of illusion and smoke and mirrors.
So if he ever actually engages with me, I will find out and that will be the end of the road.
