Remember how I didn't cry or feel sad when I filed, or when xh was crying when I told him? I almost felt at peace....well maybe that was shock. I feel overcome with sadness right now. I don't even know what triggered it.
I feel physically sick that this has happened. I am trying to hold back the tears at work. Right now I just don't feel like I will ever get past this.
In my mind he is living happily ever after with this tramp and he is being everything to her that he couldn't be to me. How can he tell me that he isn't emotionally available...he seems emotionally available for her.
I want to see him. I know that wouldn't be a good idea, but I feel like I never got to talk about this. I never got closure. I don't know what to do.
