Interesting times. I do have some great girlfriends, but they all live out of town, so we don't have much time to get together. I have a "boyfriend" (I hate that term) and we get along very well. I'm often surprised that, so far, a relationship with him has been easy and relaxing and enjoyable. He is SO unlike my X. My X and I couldn't work together on a project without him cursing and slamming things. He's great. We work together really well. No cursing. No throwing things. Nice.
I still find myself feeling programmed. If X does this, I do this. If I do this, X acts this way. When this happens, X reacts this way. I've found it hard to reprogram myself for normal, healthy reactions.
I just think that I'm on hold for a while. It's not forever, as I tell the girls. I'm ok with that.
I'm not an expert, but I've been there. And I survived.
