I think that right now your situation is overwhelming you. You seem to be everything to everybody without having much me time. Do you think that because of the fact that your kids are gone for so short a time that besides doing some of the things that used to bring you joy it also keeps you from putting in time with friends to keep a regular connection? Maybe this makes you FEEL as if the "freaks" are all that's out there. Making the effort to be around really good friends may change your whole perspective including how you are viewing yourself right now.
The guys you're meeting on these game sites may be making these crude remarks because they can. What with the annonymity afforded them they can say whatever they want to women and get away with it. I know that there are lots of great guys out there that still know how to treat women with respect yet still know how to bring a smile to our face by being fun and spirited. The next time you get the chance for some me time, don't sit home alone, call a friend and go somewhere where you get to rub elbows with real live people. Judging from what you've written that would do you a world of good.
KC I don't know where your're meeting these men but don't give up. You'll find that guy. He could be right under your nose!
