I am trying really hard to not think about h and let him be, but something seems to be going on. I have been good with the analizing but I just feel like there is something. Perhaps it is the depression or perhaps he is trying to suck me in regarding the benefits.
He was over on sunday for just a little bit. He had to work. He arrived in new jeans he bought while out with d13. The jeans came with holes in them. Now....3 years ago he once told s16 that he would never allow him to spend $$ on jeans that already have holes in them. That would be crazy. Yadayadayada. Wow...has someone turned into a teenager.
Anyway I commented on the jeans and said they were nice and jokingly said my how times have changed. H said...he liked the way they fit. Yeah right!
He was very quiet on sunday. He actually fell asleep on the couch for quite a long time. D13 and I were outside and when he left for work he apologized for sleeping and said he doesn't know why he is so tired.
I left work early on monday and H was at the house when I got home. Sleeping again. I have to say I am a bit worried about him sleeping so much.
H is barely talking to me right now. When I called him the other day about d13 he was very short. Ever since he returned from his vacation. Tired and short.
I do have to discuss something with him but don't find him in a good frame of mind right now and am a little nervous to do so. H's sister (the one from my previous post) offered s16 a car (old car with lots of miles but in good shape) for free. It was her h's and he got a company car. All it would cost is for any repairs it would need.
I took it to a mechanic and for a reasonable amount it will fix up nice and be good for him to take to school and swim practice. It is a volvo with airbags all over....
Anyway, s16 is just going for his license next month. I don't think H will approve of him having a car right away but I also know that 1 car between the 2 of us won't work. It is too hard. Both kids are too busy. If h was here, I would never do this since there would be 2 cars ....but I am tired of 5:30 am swim practice, after school practice, getting d13 to swim practice....last year i was running from 5:30 am until 9pm.
So, even though I have not discussed this with H, I think d13 may have leaked it to him. ...So maybe he is mad about that. I just can't talk to him. He makes it all about him. He'll either say his sister is trying to take away his son or that I spoil him. He just doesn't get that I need some relief. He always said I never discussed things with him. I just know when it comes to s16, his sister and the whole deal, it will be a rough conversation.
Whatever. He hates his sister and that makes this even worse.
So, today he took d13 to the orthodontist. She said he was tired. Part of me wants to tm him and ask if he is ok and part of me just wants him to twist out there.
Starting tomorrow, I will not work a full day until September 4th (I am either off full day or taking half day until the kids are back to school). I am very excited. I want to get the house in shape, back to school prep and some pool time. I am sure I will see H while i am off.
So Snodderly, happy birthday once again. We Leos rule!! (i am next thursday).
