I found some yummy cheese!

[pisces9]

HI everyone- first let me say that coming back and having all you ask about me is very heart warming! smooches to you all!!

SOOOOOO~ it went AMAZINGLY WELL! i could cry juts writing this out of happiness!~ but im calm

my H found such a beautiful area to camp that allows dogs too! we relaxed in the lake, swam, hiked through creeks with huge granite boulders, made a camp fire, talked for hours...star gazed...hugged a lot and got clarity on life and us.

the first day we just talked about everything other then our R- the the campfire brought out the R talk (by him) and i just listened. he addressed partying/drinking a lot and my family involvement a lot. he said it was time to grow up and stop drinking...that was a HUGE step for me to hear!

then the next day we headed home and went in the hot tub to clean up :)(no nookie this whole time FYI) and he opened up again..more and more. mostly this time about what to do. he wanted to talk about plans sort of.

moving-
YES- that has to happen but we dont know when or how. wait til he can tanfer locations in april? move now and start fresh?
my job-
i work for my fam so he thinks i should at least lessen the hours or quit (not sure)..they are vey intense and exhausting emotionally for anyone - really. intense and he feels controlled by them in too many ways- so do I.

those were the 2 major ones...

the only weird part was when i was cooking dinner for him- i hugged him and said you know how i know dreams come true? (we talked about having dreams and goals earlier) and he said how? i said bc i have you back in my life....he said well I hope your dream comes true...i said HEY and whapped him on the butt. he said i just don’t want to fall back into our old patterns..i said i know- im scared too...but i cant see that happening. he said we need to learn how to communicate and i said there are tons of books, groups, etc...then we sort of just move don from that topic.

he left after a while and didnt stay the night- but thats ok. he said he had an amaing time...he said that a few times.

i really cant believe how much we talked about this weekend- yet at the same time just played and relaxed and got away from it all- and were just with eachother.

i am so filled up! but steady...

(((((hugs to all))))))