Will I ever learn? I wanted ex to know why the tears over the phone after court..I wanted him to know that I didnt have any false hope of him turning it around...I wanted him to know that I felt a little sting of hurt for the reality of it all.. Boy, am I glad I didnt tell him that.
He is sooo angry and bitter, he wont see any of that b/c hes head is so clouded right now..
He doesnt understand why I am getting ANY alimony which BTW I only asked for $100/mo for 3 yrs..Yeah not anything really. He says why should I get any of his retirement b/c I work too and I can save like him... I expalined alimony includes time off work for bearing children. The last two I was on bedrest from the start and then a hysterectomy... I told him I could have asked for more (but w/out an attorney I think I did fine by myself).
Why do these men think they can just walk away after 10yrs M and leave nothing? He says No, he's not bitter... I told how now I am finding myself again & that people who go from one relationship to the next w/out any down time only carry their promblems over instead fixing themselves first.
I'm glad I'm no longer losing myself for someone else.
I had lost myself in the role of wife and mother so much I forgot who I was...
His OW is in the exact same positon I was 10yrs ago... She is ten yrs younger than Ex & I, just baught her first house, has good credit & only one child of whom they can pawn off to her mother whenever they go on huneymoons to the islands...
Ex and I never got to go anywhere exotic or anywhere just the two of us b/c of the 3 kids....
But all is GOOD..GOD is good and I will be fine..heck been fine all this time.. I have worked on me and loving life once more.
