Thanks Nutty, BND, Ian. This was a pretty big awakening for me. I've been angry and blaming her for a long time without realizing how much I did by not appreciating her openly.
It's ok, it's part of my healing.
Last night was rough. Terrible dreams of her talking to other men, being friends with them and me feeling like "you treat them better than you treat me". Little boy stuff. Lot's of pain and anxiety.
Yes, I went to bed feeling good and whole. The enemy plants the bad stuff to negate that good feeling.
Reading the posts this morning are helping to bring me back up to 'feeling good'.
