Thanks Naej...I'm feelng in need of "mother" figures right now. ANd yes, the weather is attrocious.
I'm at work. Luckily i have none to do, but using the internet is a no-no but hey ho, past caring. I have been day dreaming about going travelling, but thats a fantasy as I know its not my destiny right now..funnily enough it is his and would be the perfect antidote (he's had eclipses in his 9th house of travel, near to the angle of the career and will have one on his Jupiter in Feb, again about travel) either that or higher learning, but I dont think he would go back to college. I think his best bet is a possible job on offer in Dubai a while ago. It fits with the eclipses. I still dont know what to do about my college course, I am so broke.
Th confusing thing for me is, he wasnt a liar and a cheat and he didnt run off with someone else over the past year (as your H did?) he was just alone and kept in close contact with me - very confusing. I hate that he is ignoring me though, its so disrespecful. Its another shock. I am drafting an email to him now...
I still have this horible feeling when I look in the mirror, like I am no good, or not pretty enough, or am a bad person. I talk and talk about the reasons he left me and I still cant get past this leaving me feeling inadequate and 'not good enough'. Its just the ultimate rejection.
