Seperated but living together...

[Kiki1011]

I have started thinking more about myself and haven't let myself think about H or the OW. I have been surprised at how much calmer I have been.

I had a very nice night Sunday night. Had dinner with my friend after work and then we went to a late movie. Monday morning we did a little bit of shopping and had a very good lunch at a new restaurant around here. Afterwards I didn't quite feel like going home yet so I went to a park near here and started reading the five love languages. It was over all a great day.

When I got home around 6:30 H was just making some dinner and we sat and ate dinner together. It was the first I had seen of him in 5 days. Then he informed me about our shower being broken and we sat in the bathroom for a couple hours together trying to fix that darn faucet. It felt nice being so close. He kept calling me "babe" too, like "hey babe will you hand me that tool", etc. It was nice to hear but I realize that it was probably only because it is what he is used to calling me.

Well anyway, we had been talking about how I may or may not go to the white sox game tonight, which my friend had an extra ticket for. I didn't end up going because I got stuck at work but around the start of the game I got a text from H that merely said "Are you going to go to the game tonight?" It was the first text I have gotten from him in weeks.

I got home around 8:00 tonight but had stuff to do so I didn't actually sit down with him until around 10:00 and at 10:30 he went to bed. There wasn't too much conversation but it was at least some what pleasant.

I have been trying to act like he is just a friend and nothing more but sometimes those lines can become confusing. Like if I want to touch him or kiss him should I go up to him and do it or should I just stay backed off?

Things seem to be improving but I am also getting to this point where I am caring less and less about things and that scares me.