Second, don't talk to your friends, especially mutual ones. They are one sided.
We all make mistakes, its a normal part of life, now is the time to learn from them. Right now is the time to take the focus off of the R, and turn it on yourself.
This is a very difficult thing to do. But you need to remember that you cannot change him, you can only change you. So start there.
Don't call too much. Don't text too much. Do stuff with the babies and you, and don't worry about inviting him. Let him see that you can still have a life.
Right now, you are in panic mode. Don't do anything while you are in that mode. It is hard, probably one of the hardest things you will have to do, but you have to let go a little.
Find other things to do, little ones, that keep you occupied. I actually pray a lot, as a matter of fact anytime I feel that weight on my chest and I know the panic is coming on, I pray. It helps.
Post. We are a good bunch, and we laugh a lot. When one of us is on the floor, we all help to pick up.
Remember that this is a long process, and do not expect to see results overnight. It could take a VERY long time. I am not trying to discourage you in any way, just be prepared for, as I like to say, the biggest roller coaster ride you will ever be on.
(((TH)))
Welcome to our board, though I am sorry it is for this.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
