I'll tell you what you've done right. YOU'RE IN THE ARENA. You're fighting for your marriage, and for your family. You're introspective, and try to improve when you fail, and you get right back in there.
I don't know your sitch well enough to give you specifics, but it's evident just from the few days I've followed you that you're a man of character and sincerity.
Quote:
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; because there is not effort without error and shortcomings; but who does actually strive to do the deed;
Who knows the great enthusiasm, the great devotion, who spends himself in a worthy cause, who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement and who at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly.
So that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.”