Reason to Believe on the Lake Erie Shore

[Neilh23]

journaling...feel free to respond.

ok. back to struggling. my title....reason to believe. what are my reasons to believe? does she still love me? i think so. does she like what she's seen of the new Neil? i think so. Do i have a lot to offer my W now? Yes. DOes she know this? I think so.

then why do i feel like chit and want to give up and move on with someone else?

This friday will be 6 months to the day of the bomb. I feel a little bit like i'm back at square one. R ight back where we were 6 months ago. I feel like she's totally given up on me and our M.

words vs actions? WTF.

anyone answer that?

i'm sucking wind right now in my race here......bent over with a breathing cramp....