DQ, I know that she loves me. I just think that she has lost the part of herself to share with me in a physical way. I am longing to seduce her as you posted on Baggy's thread, if she would only let me. To give her an open mouth kiss and have her thinking about me all day in anticipation of things to come later, if she would allow herself to think of me in this way. I want this more than anything now.
I don't know that I will ever find this with her or with anyone else if not with her. It's the risk I'm now willing to take because I can no longer live wondering if I will ever truly get to be myself and to be alive again. I have so much to share if she would only accept it.
If she doesn't join me it will be her loss, I hope her coming home Sunday night was the beginning of her awakening. She was very calm last night and even gave me a nice hug when I came home... still a million miles away from vixen though.
Thanks for your prayers DQ. It will truly be a miracle if I do reach her.
