I remember posting to someone quite awhile back, when I wasn't faced with the certainty of an H who was moving or had moved out, that I wore mine still even though H had taken his off. My thought at the time, was I am still married, so of course I still wear it.
Now that H has moved out, it seems so fake to be wearing it. It symbolizes "for better or worse", and my H has totally bailed out on that. It symbolizes "our love" for each other, when all I have left now is "my own love" for him. I do believe that "our love" still exists. It exists more explicitly in me, but also somewhere deep within H where he can't (or won't) feel it. I know it is there, but what I don't know is whether he will ever go deep within himself and pull it out or even dare to look at it.
I also worry (or maybe worry is not the word to use) that me wearing it will make H think that I am clinging to what was and not letting him go. I am not "clingy" in my actions, but if I took it off, he couldn't misinterpret me having it on, or feel like I am indirectly persuing him. On the other hand, if I took it off, he could also misinterpret me taking it off.
Any thoughts on this?
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