When I woke up this morning I felt really good. Empowered.
I think it's because I see W's 'friendship' with OM as freeing to me. She crossed the line I drew when I told her my boundaries were 'no dating'. Even if this is just some 'guy friendship thing' it's still her getting her needs met from OM.
As far as I'm concerned, she's 'moved on'. When I looked at her the other day during the OM discussion I truly did not know the woman I was speaking to.
Yesterday I solved a bunch of hard problems in my programming work and I felt good. I realize that I'm back now, and as long as I walk Gods path for me I'll stay back.
W now talks / reacts to me as an authority figure. That to means I'm getting some respect from her.
I know I am going to be more than 'all right'. I am more free today than I have been.
Do I still have a 'connection' to W? Always. I truly believe that we were meant to be together forever. Could she win me back? Yes. Will she? Don't know. Doesn't look like it.
Regardless, I'm no longer 'losing'. That's what makes all the difference in the quality of my life. And I'm a good dad.
