I know what I did was a learning experience. I learned as I went along just like all the rest of you. Some things worked and others didn't. When it doesn't work, change it.
I do know what definately didn't work was the crying, pleading, asking questions. That only sent my h away! Once I got to the point where I didn't call him anymore and left him alone is when things started to change. Granted it took a while and it didn't happen over night. I had to set some boundries, I went to C and I got myself together. I grew so much during this whole crisis and so did my h. Our lives are so much better!
Read my old threads and you will see what a mess I was!!! LOL