LOL, well I guess its good to be light hearted considering the daily sitch. It's just been one of those days. These typos are from my mind running faster than my typing.
Yeah I am at 4 months enforced celibacy and not looking like it's going to end soon. Even that could hold for little while if I could just have my W here to hold.
I just need to work on my walk with God and pray that he will restore our marriage, that he will protect our marriage with the blood of Jesus Christ and that he will rebuild our marriage on the solid rock of Jesus Christ.
Sooners, Glad you were not offended! Someone (Mark Twain, perhaps?) once said, "He who is willing to laugh at himself will never cease to be amused!" These days I'm about as likely to laugh at myself as I am at anything else!
I've never had a "low libido level," but I wouldn't mind the celibacy so much if it weren't for the fact that I'm afraid it's going to be for the rest of my life. As sick of this mess as I am, I will continue to stand forever, because I consider myself married in God's eyes as long as H and I are both alive...regardless of anything H does, legally or with anyone else. My belief is that once it's done (M in God's view), nothing can undo it short of death. Although I'm not keen on the prospect of having to deal with possible STDs if H does come to his senses....ecccch!
Sometimes I think God must get tired of me asking for the same things all the time.... I have a close friend (age 45) who was recently offering to give up everything, including her H of almost 20 years, for the "man of her dreams," literally...she believes she dreamed about him when she was 9 years old. The only reason she didn't walk out of her M and everything else in her life was that "dream man" said he wasn't interested in her doing that, and went cold on her. This has been going on now for several years, and all she can talk about is "dream man"--every word and gesture they exchange (he is a teacher of hers, so they see each other regularly) is told and retold ad nauseaum by her. Many times I have been on the verge of begging her to please, please not talk about him, at least for the rest of the evening!! She has had a one-track mind for a couple of years now! So I feel a little funny sometimes repeating myself to God in my prayers...
May we all find peace, clarity, and love in all the right ways. And be able to laugh at ourselves too!
Peace, Dawn
Me 45/H 47, no kids Together since 1985; M/1992 Bomb1 (EA-OW1, age 22) 2001 Bomb2 (EA/PA-OW2, age 22) 10/2007, A continues H left 11/24/08 minimal contact, no legal action http://tinyurl.com/DawnHope1
I've never had a "low libido level," but I wouldn't mind the celibacy so much if it weren't for the fact that I'm afraid it's going to be for the rest of my life. As sick of this mess as I am, I will continue to stand forever, because I consider myself married in God's eyes as long as H and I are both alive...regardless of anything H does, legally or with anyone else. My belief is that once it's done (M in God's view), nothing can undo it short of death.
My xH married the OW July 20th, now what?? I also believe once is done. Althought I'm a 2nd wife, but his 1st had affairs the whole time they were M, they were M 5 years. We did it right & knew what we wanted. Now this MLC's came along & he has lost his mind!!!
i know how hurt you are but try taking the focus off of h and put it on God. do not continue to ask questions about why this or that happened because you may never know.
allow God to do His work and let go little by little of your h. this will eat you alive if you allow it to.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
I know I'm not supposed to ask questions. It is just so hard right now.
I'm trying to focus on something else but it is really hard b/c this has happened so quickly. I sure wish he had that cooling off period like some places do.
