Hi naej,

Thank you! I'm trying to detach but I'm just not sure how. Any advice on that???

I was pretty busy today working on one of my clients books. I found out that the job I interviewed for is between me & one other person. I think, it is going to be hard b/c H & I had lunch every day when I was working but I'm going to have to do something different. My everyday was with or about him & I together so it's just really hard.

In my mind I cannot see my life without him, I can't imagine me not ever seeing him again. No, I don't want him like he is now but I want the man I had before MLC. I don't think money is what drove him to her, he was in a funk with MLC & she came along at the momment when he needed something different.

I just miss the man I married & can't imagine being with anyone else. I don't have any brothers or sisters, the only one I was close to & we were like sisters died suddenly at age 47, I believe that is what triggered the MLC for my H back in 2004.

My dogs are my comfort right now. I dread going back to work & leaving them all day but I know I have to.

I know why the OW or my XH sent me that email, he told my SIL that I would loose the house. He doesn't think I can get a loan without him or without having a job. My credit rating is better than his & I got a loan without anyone being a co-signer. He wants me to loose the house & have to sell it but I'm not going to. He also knows I'm better with money than he is & if it wasn't for me he would have gone bankrupt when we first met & married.

I'm just going to need some time to deal with this. I'm starting to clean out some closets that still has some of his stuff in there. Bowling ball, I'm know there are some coats in the closet too. In the attic his winter clothes are up there, I found them the other day. I'm just going to stick everything in the attic & then maybe one day I'll give it to goodwill or have a yard sale. I guess I'm just not quite ready to get rid of the things he left here.

Thank you so much for your concern!!! It's just really new for me right now.

(((HUGS)))