The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Weird day. H and I had to go to court over a personal matter. We got a sitter and did a little shopping for the kids and then out to a quick serve dinner. We had a nice time.
It was kinda interesting, my h said we should get matching tattoos. His would say "king of kings" and mine would say "queen of queens". He also said to put 4 hearts one for each of the kids names and one for his name. Hmmm what does all this mean?
I did say h I think you should move home first before we get matching tattoos. I am not really a tattoo person. I kinda pride myself on having an untouched body this way. Not sure if it's my style.
I did mention I could try the henna first and see if I like it.
H also mentioned that we have an anniversary coming up. I just said really and left it at that. He is always talking about the future lately like we need to get a new washing machine, landscape stuff, downsize my vehicle.
Hmmmmm would any of this be confusing to anybody else?
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"
Well, inside I felt like it would be good to send her, but it may send the wrong message and push even more, I don't know. Oh, I haven't sent the link.
Do you think praying is and maybe having one person you know you can turn to is all that we have most of the time. That's I feel right now. Sometimes I feel very alone in all of this and there not much I can do to change things for the better. I need and am trying to feel closer to guide and rely on him more. I just not there yet, but I hope to get there soon.
PH do you a whole lot of praying all day? Also anything else that makes it easier to cope? Sometimes I feel distracted. Sometimes I feel like a pray some of the same stuff over and over and my mind feels blocked to anything new, but am want God's help in any way he will give it me.
Well, I know about these things because my H talks about things too. He wants us to go to the Greek Islands together when we have some money and was very romantic in the things he said about that.
I remember when we talked about our anniversary the beginning of April and how it would be special but you know what, he left the day before and has been gone now for almost four months.
I would say things are very positive and promising in your situation.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Well, inside I felt like it would be good to send her, but it may send the wrong message and push even more, I don't know. Oh, I haven't sent the link.
Do you think praying is and maybe having one person you know you can turn to is all that we have most of the time. That's I feel right now. Sometimes I feel very alone in all of this and there not much I can do to change things for the better. I need and am trying to feel closer to guide and rely on him more. I just not there yet, but I hope to get there soon.
PH do you a whole lot of praying all day? Also anything else that makes it easier to cope? Sometimes I feel distracted. Sometimes I feel like a pray some of the same stuff over and over and my mind feels blocked to anything new, but am want God's help in any way he will give it me.
I would like to find a good bible study group.
Sooners:
My H has been a born again Christian for well over 30 years and knows the Bible inside and out and even attended seminary.
Over two years ago, our daughters would get their Bibles out and read to him what it said about adultery. He accused us of being satanists amongst other things. When they are in the thick of it, they do a total 180 with regard to their beliefs and just about everything else.
Thank God that is long over.
Prayer is a great and powerful tool. Joining a Bible study is a great idea. Do you have a prayer support group you can join?
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Well first I think I need to proof read my messages better for typos, lol.
SF, what you said about keeping to myself and my walk with God I think maybe exactly what he wants me to do right now. I am working on finding a prayer or bible study group. It would lift me up and get my walk with God closer all in one.
Glam, thanks for pointing out that it would just push my views, I sure have a lot to learn, maybe this is why sometimes my W says I just don't get it.
I feel like you all help couch me and I appreciate all of you taking the time and giving me advice and input.
Also from talking to her Friday she doesn't care to have anything to do with me right now. What she said sounds like she is done. I can't give up though.
If you could find a men's prayer group, I think that would be wonderful. And they will even pray with you and for you.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Sooners, please don't think I'm laughing *at* you, but did you notice this??
Originally Posted By: sooners7xchamps
Well first I think I need to proof read my messages better for typos, lol.
I feel like you all help couch me and I appreciate all of you taking the time and giving me advice and input.
After 10 months of enforced celibacy, I could use a little "couching" myself!
Peace, Dawn
Me 45/H 47, no kids Together since 1985; M/1992 Bomb1 (EA-OW1, age 22) 2001 Bomb2 (EA/PA-OW2, age 22) 10/2007, A continues H left 11/24/08 minimal contact, no legal action http://tinyurl.com/DawnHope1
