Onward but not so Upward right now

[mishka422]

Ha! Lab coats at the ready!

Not really a lack of PMA, more a realization that even though it's only been 8 months, H and I are done. I can't think about the would have, should have, could have's. It's pointless and too late for any of that. H has made that clear and I have to make my peace finally with it.

Co-parenting isn't really a problem. He doesn't want to be too involved. Just enough so that he doesn't look like a total a$$. I don't know how to make it easier for me to speak to him. He doesn't ever call me to make these arrangements. He does it all by text. How dumb.

I get flustered when I do talk to him but I usually manage to hold it together. He is so smug about his new life being so great. He has no responsibilities, the broom apparently is "so great" and "not a bad person at all". Whatever. I get so mad just thinking about it.

Ok.....don't want to talk about it anymore. Tempted to erase this post but decided I'd let it fly just to get it out.