Yeah, maybe you're right that for now he doesn't deserve to know how much I love him. At any rate, I'm not going to send him my letter.
Still not sure about S9's letter.
I would love to get the kids back in counseling, but I cannot afford it right now, and H refuses to pay. That's something I will bring up with my lawyer to see if we can get it court ordered, and if not, I will bring it up in settlement negotiations. The kid's C did see the letter just a couple of weeks after S9 wrote it, and she had hoped that she or the MC that H and I were seeing would have a chance to share it with H. It didn't happen because H stopped paying for us, and stopped going himself.
I'm still struggling daily with the No Expectations thing. I know I'm still struggling with denial, too.
How are you doing?
T
Me:40, xH:41 M:19 T:21 D14, S10, D6 IDLYA bomb:12/22/06 OW bomb (21 yr. old employee):12/23/06 H move out 2/07, OW move in 5/07 D papers served 6/07 D final Nov. 26, 08 :-(
