This weekend has been really hard for me. I just need to vent a little. On Saturday we texted a little here and there and it was fine. Just about my husbands job situation. It was kind of spread through the day since he was busy at a job and I was out shopping with my best friend. He told me his schedual but wasn't getting off work until 12:00 (midnight) so when I went to sleep I just sent a goodnight text. I said "Hope you have fun. I'm off to sleep. Kisses." and the next morning I saw that he wrote "Woot im off!" at like 12:05. I had already said I was going to sleep like two hours prior. Why would he bother writing that to me? I don't know. . .for some reason it irritates me.
So then Sunday I had church other things to do but for the most part had a real down day. I just seem to be depressed for some reason. I decided that morning to not text or call my husband and to kind of go dark for awhile and see how long it would take him to contact me since last time we spoke on the phone I asked him to call me when he knew what his work week was going to look like so we could find time to get together. Anyways he did not talk to me all day. I know he was working again but that has never stopped him before. I'm just frustrated. Why is he ignoring me? I was sad all day and still am. If he misses me and I miss him why is he not talking to me right now?
I had a dream about us last night. I hate that! I used to love it but now its so hard because it just makes me feel like I can wake up and have him next to me and yet he is far away.
It's already noon today and he still hasn't called or texted me and I'm still struggling to find things to do to keep my mind occupied. I have things I should do but cannot find the motivation to do them. I just feel lonely and sad. Why can't this just be over already?
