Decisions shape destiny

[sleeper]

You have touched on many issues with which I am now dealing.

I've been looking at X as "ill", which has allowed me to be there for her and love her unconditionally. The problem is that leaves me vunerable as I hope from time to time that she will "get well", quite often trigered by seeing what I believe are improvements in her condition.

We are going to have contact because of the kids. I often think it would be easier if we had no contact at all.

Maybe what is needed is to think of her as "gone."