I agree, it is betrayal. I spent some time thinking last night that had she spent this 'quality time' with ME when I was falling apart then maybe we wouldn't be in this mess. Instead she joins the band boosters, insuring she won't be around on weekends. She doesn't work to help out, and she avoided me when I WAS drinking.
Now, she is betraying me again. Betrayal, abandonment, selfishness has been her pattern.
I get it. Most of my hurt is because I haven't been able to come to terms with the fact that the person I chose to love over all others can do this to me. Well she can.
And yes, there are consequences. And I won't protect her from them. I'm gone now. She is dead in my life.
She came by this morning, I think because today is the first day of Band Camp for D17 and she wanted to 'help her get going' and give her a ride to school.
I was up also having some cereal. She said a quiet 'good morning' to me and mostly talked to D17. At one point we were both in the kitchen, I was eating and she just stood on the other side and said nothing.
When they left, D17 said goodbye and W said nothing.
Other than to post weird or interesting events, I'm not going to talk about her any more. It takes too much energy and she's betrayed me again. The woman I loved is dead. This new person is a stranger and I don't like her very much.
