Go out and spoil yourself today and use this day to appreciate the good things you do have in your life...your kids, your family, your friends, etc...you do have more of a life than you give yourself credit for. You can even appreciate that your H is still trying to make sure you have a nice birthday...there are many WASs that don't acknowledge the LBSs birthday in any way.
If I could give you a birthday gift, it would be the ablitiy to focus on what you do have rather than what you don't.
