Well my h did text me back last night about the prom I told him about which was good. He actually texted me before my last post and it didn't particularly lift my mood. I think that is actually quite good as I am now not so reliant on him to make me feel good and I have stopped blaming him for making me feel bad so therefore I am freer to send these throw-away, no expectation texts. His reply was nice, it said
"Oh cool thanks. I'll get it on iplayer! I keep meaning to go to a prom but I haven't got round to it yet!"
I just replied saying
"The first Gershwin is really fun. I haven't got around to going either although I keep meaning to! There is some good stuff this year."
I would really like to ask him to go to a prom, but feel that as this is where we met and we would see lots of people we would know that it might be pressure. Although we engineer it that we could avoid seeing people we know. However, as his reluctance to see me is so much he might see it as pressure and it might be too much. However, it would mean there is no financial/ practical stuff to talk about so it actually might be less pressured. I would mean it in the spirit of friends, no more but I don't know how he would take it. I don't want to exacerbate guilt in anyway, although he doesn't seem to feel uncomfortable about talking about the proms. I might be ass-u-ming that he feels uncomfortable... or I could just be waffling a lot like I am now.
What do you reckon? Shall I chuck another grenade over the wall or is it too soon?
