also - we sold our cabin today! it closed and we are all done. sort of bitter sweet but its all good. it will allow a fresh start for us without as much $ attachment to my family. im actually happy about it bc this would have had to happen if we move anyway so it is better to have this over with. one less thing to worry about. no fires to wory about or bears! we loved it there but its a new start...
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ok- ive been down in the dumps and upset and desperate feeling. here are some reasons why:
my friend snapped at me the other day- she took out her stuff on me (nice) never had done that before. my best friend moved a few weeks ago so i miss her so much we sold out cabin i am under the weather
and of course im lonely.
so i texted H to come over last night- he said he would but then called late and said he was too tired..we talked for a while and actually had a great talk- very light and fun! it was one of the most normal talks we have had to date so i need to realize that and be happy at that progress. he said he would call today after he woke up- well no call yet- so im just going about my "business" and doing random stuff...
i just feel like i am very low energy and not GAL'ing as well.
i plan to shop today for house stuff...and go on a hike later.
im stuck. any help?
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UPDATE! right after i wrote the above email my H called to say Hi this morning...he was exhausted from 2 days of hard riding and said he just needed to stay home and relax...i said i can come over and just hang w you at your place for a bit - he said that would be nice...so i came to his house (brought him multi vitamins- he is out)...then we just talked about this and that and cuddled a bit on his couch...cozy! then i cooked him (really just boiled water) tortellini and sat w him while he ate before work. when we were talking on his couch he had a backpack out and i said id love to go camping- he said- well lets go...i said ok! (calmly) he said where...i said this and that - what do you think? so we are going somehwere TBD on monday!!! yippeeee~~! so on my way out- he asked if i could help (i offered a bit earlier) to drop off his bike wheel at a shop...i said ok- no prob. so i left and went about my day and took the wheel in- they had all these q's and i went to text H and he had already texted me to say thx for lunch...so we texted a bit about the wheel- then he called and i was shopping for some camping food...he sounded happy and calm... i feel like we are almost a normal couple today. weird. its like things are the same- except for the major piece of living apart....i Iove it. i love being a wife. i love helping him out and buying things for US! it has been so long for me to have thought of 2 people..ive only shopped for one for months. this all feels so good. there is very little doubt in my mind. but of course it creeps in when i realize we are apart still.
clearly he misses me and wants to rebuild something w me. it is like being married but with the feeling of dating...very odd...BUT i like it!
its amazingly normal and i think we just needed time apart. part of me wants to analyze and figure out what needs to change but there arent many things and the major things i was worried about are fix-able and do-able in terms of every day life stuff....there are always things to work out.
i just am soo happy but still guarded. its like if he said the words i want to come home i wonder if i would feel different than i do now. i m sure i would be happy but not over the top crazy. is this detachment?
weird.....
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Sounds like you had a really great time! I was reading back through your posts, and while you've been through a lot, it seems like you've been doing things right since the beginning!
I know you don't want to say this too soon, but it seems as though you're going to be a success story, and I bet you'll be in piecing soon...
Camping is such a big step--spending the night together! I also think him asking you do things for him is like a step back toward normalcy.
Anyway reading your posts I can see that I have a lot to learn still in terms of DB techniques and detaching. Enjoy your weekend, sounds like you have a lot to be happy about :).
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
Thanks ITH! i hope to be in piecing soon- although im still comfy here~it has been a long hard road- and it is still hard for some reason- but the initial pain was so intense- i just want anyone reading this to know that the pain gets better and you can make huge strides...you just have to do the work and keep doing the work. forever! yowza!
so we talked this morning for an hour planning where we will go... i let him take the lead...he found a great, beautiful spot on a lake....i told him he rocked and he picked the best spot!
this will be out first night spending the night together- last night we talked after he got off work at midnight and he almost came over... i am excited to be with him and it will also be our first time together for a few days straight. i am so happy!
i asked what he needed me to get today and im participating a lot but letting him take the lead. i had already planned out a bunch of meals and he seemed happy about that. im bringing travel scrabble and a deck of cards...and i requested wine from him
also- we will be hiking both days so that will be nice too
sooooo- i probably wont sleep tonight! but im so excited!!
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thanks lost! im so excited i went and got all our goods today- did you know they make teeny bottles of extra virgin olive oil? perfect for cooking at a campsite...it was too cute- i had to get it!
i a soooooo happy..... trying to stay calm! trying to live in the moment and not plan my vow renewal ceremony quite yet. ha ha!
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Thanks Jen! my hard work is paying off...i have drawn him back to me....so now i will go the distance...and keep it up....
i brought enough games, song books, etc to keep us plenty occupied...we will hike too a lot and have our doggie! so we have plenty of stuff to do...i cant wait to just BE with him.
i will really be present and in the moment- thats all I want...
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