Aud, Just thought I would stumble in for a peek. You have nothing to worry about if all your fears are dreams. Remember, that you are the dream he gets the chance to relive each and every day free of charge (well almost.. ). You live your life free of intentional guilt, that alone gives you less weight to go about your day and more energy for everything! Again, I know it sounds trite, but hearing how you are keeping things together with patience and understanding is beyond admirable...My weary eye always keeps a look out for you...peace
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