kat, my kids were standing right next to me. He couldn't have looked more like a pussy if I had bitch slapped him. He knows that I could snap him in two. I'm a big dude.

Thanks pup.

She called about 25 minutes ago.
"I just finished the laundry. I'm exhausted."
"ok."
"Do they have enough to get them through tomorrow?"
"They're fine. They have clothes here. Don't worry about it."
"Okay. I still have to pick up Miguel from the bowling alley. I just picked up a few things from the grocery store for him."

He is staying with her this week, but he is going to tell her that he is coming over here Wed and Thursday.

"Ok."
D11 comes in. "Is that momma? She's not bringing our bags, right?"

She is smart. She knows her mom.

"No, moms not coming."
"I can still go. It will just be late."
"No. They have things here. I just finished dinner and we are getting ready to eat."
"oh, ok. They're ok."
"All right then......"
"Can I TALK to them?"
"Yup. Juli is asleep though."

They talk for while. I hear, "I miss you too."
Not very heartfelt. GBG had to say it first. What is D11 going to say? I know they tell their mom how they miss me. We talk constantly. All the texts yesterday. She sneaks calls to me. GBG hears them tell ME how they miss me. They say it first. When they are with me, no mention of her nor any calls to her. GBG has to call them.

I have peace in my heart concerning them and me. My heart hurts for them and thier mom. I did screw up earlier at one point. When talking about the girls and what they are going through. I told her that since she never talks to me, that I have no idea what she is going through or how she feels about what she is doing to the girls.
"I have to hear thier pain, I then I have to help clean up your mess."
"You don't have to clean up my mess. I'll clean up my own mess. I don't need you to do it."

I caught myself after I said it. That comment REALLY pissed her off. I actually apologized for saying it. She was ready to end the convo right there. I corrected myself to her.

"I'm sorry. I shouldnt have said it like that. You DO have to clean it up yourself."

Felt like I said the right things and also the wrong things. But over all, I felt in control the whole time, and at the end, she was pretty nice to me.


By the way, I learned that I can cook a BAD ASS baked whole lemon pepper chicken tonight. D11 LOVES it. So do I, I might add. I may never buy a precooked rotisserie chicken again.

I feel like a hero today.


Me 47, WW 38
SS18, D15, D10

Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08

"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."