Is there a glimmer of hope for I'mstillhopeful ?

[I'mstillhopeful]

Hi Ms. Imp,

I have been thinking of you also, thank you for replying to my post.

I will be praying for you and iamlost on Wednesday. When H and I married on the 13th I remember wondering if it would be bad luck for the longevity of our marriage. (I remember reading that some cultures consider the number 13 to be lucky.) Over the years people have asked H if he is of Asian descent. A schizophrenic patient once used the moniker "Chinese" rather than using my H's given name. His mother was actually Mexican, his father from Kansas.

Originally I had planned to hike in the mountains on Wednesday, but now, I must go to assist my elderly parents in Connecticut. H will be attending a professional convention, and, I have reason to believe he is taking the OW. (In an e-mail to her he said he couldn't wait to take her travelling, in a car, a plane, or a ship.)

Today I was using old newspapers for mulch and came across a wedding supplement from a newspaper from her town. The date on it was February of this year. Who knows why she gave it to him, who knows why he kept it, who knows why he left it in our recycling bin?

I've been so sorry to hear of the recent developments in your situation. It is so ironic that your H began to become more attentive after you made your declaration. I have a friend who told her H she wanted a divorce to try to create a change in their R and he accepted what was a bluff on her part and she divorced without really wanting it. I know that your decision was very different from that type of manipulation.


Today, after reading my H's e-mail I began to ponder...should my H wish to try again...how could I possibly trust him to not take the same road in the future? I'd be that much older and, maybe there is someone out there who is looking for the person who I am becoming.