back from scotland and just wanted to say hello. was going to go through everyone's threads, but don't know if I have the energy right now, so please don't take it personally.
And I'm feeling conflicted. I had a good trip and did okay with being alone. Obviously I missed my W. I wondered whether she was stopping by my house to visit the cats, or whether she was thinking of me. Since there'd been so much contact before I left, I half thought she'd leave a letter or something. I wanted to steel myself.
Well, silly me. She didn't stop by, didn't leave a letter, didn't appear to think about me at all. She had asked me to dinner before I left. She emailed a confirmation after I got back, but something in the wording made me think she's gotten cold feet from whatever her original purpose had been. Who cares - she can spin all she wants. Being alone was good for me to let all that go.
But being alone also made me more confident in where I'm at right now, and I think I need a break so I don't dwell on the end of my M so much. I need to let it go, stop analyzing, move on to other things.
So, hope everyone is doing well. I'll stop back in every now and then.
