Onward but not so Upward right now

[mishka422]

((((Donna)))))(((((J)))))

You are both so fab!

Donna - I am really doing my best to not expect anything at all from him. It's not worth my sanity. He either will or he won't - it's his R with his son. I will only ask him to take him to his activities if I have no other choice. If he wants to volunteer then I will let him. I won't depend on him doing anything at all. Regarding the classes, I just got a boost late last night. I have to get moving quickly on it. I'm looking to take some online courses through the state college to gain some more credit hours. As soon as I can build it up to 48 credit hours then I can apply to the school I want to attend to get certified in diagnostic sonography. I want out of my current career and this is truly the only other one that interests me. They have finally opened a school here on my end of Atlanta for that. The others were all at least an hour and a half drive away through nasty traffic.

The mom front is a whole other issue. She creates her own misery and won't allow anyone to help her. She doesn't want people coming into the house except the nurse from our church that visits with her once a month. She doesn't like to talk on the phone in chit-chat, and she can't really get out even with the senior services. She's housebound with the exception of going to dialysis 3 times per week. I try to get her to let me take her places with me - NO. She doesn't feel like it. Even just to go to a movie - nope. I'm pretty much done letting her reactions to my going places control me. She'll just have to realize that I am in need of companionship and I have to go elsewhere to find it and that is that!!!

JCJ - You are so sweet. I don't know about fabulous, but I aim at being pleasant, helpful, and goofy as much as possible. I'll continue to do that as much as possible.

[mishka422]

STBX just sent me a text telling me he is at wal-mart and asked if s13 needed anything I could think of for school. ummmmm.....yeah....how about EVERYTHING!!!! I didn't answer him yet. I did get him to pay half of the registration costs I had to shell out today so that is good.

[mishka422]

Nothing to report really. Just playing catch up on everyone's threads.

I returned my settlment agreement to my L with my notes for revisions yesterday. I'm sure I'll hear from her early next week about them. After that is done she'll contact STBX to have him come in to go over them and if he agrees and we both sign that will it. As soon as the papers are signed we'll be D'd. There is no requirement for a judge to approve them. Seems strange doesn't it? M of nearly 15 years gone with a wave of a pen.

Feeling ok right now. Trying to find a new direction to go is exhausting work but I'm getting there. Still working on getting my business off the ground. Not really getting anywhere yet with that. Also looking at going back to school to finish my degree. Too many things to consider and it's overwhelming me.

ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!!!!!

[karen43]

The mom front is a whole other issue. She creates her own misery and won't allow anyone to help her. She doesn't want people coming into the house except the nurse from our church that visits with her once a month. She doesn't like to talk on the phone in chit-chat, and she can't really get out even with the senior services. She's housebound with the exception of going to dialysis 3 times per week. I try to get her to let me take her places with me - NO. She doesn't feel like it. Even just to go to a movie - nope. I'm pretty much done letting her reactions to my going places control me. She'll just have to realize that I am in need of companionship and I have to go elsewhere to find it and that is that!!!

Sounds good!!! Yeah, your mom chooses to live life the way she does, and you should choose to live life the way you want! Hope you are having a good weekend!!! Karen

[mishka422]

((((Karen)))))

Just trying to get all my son's school supplies together. He starts school Monday and I'm stressing BIG TIME over all of it. My H was never much help with school anyway so I don't know why I'm so freaked by it all. I guess just the knowledge that I have to find the money for all of this myself and have no option for any help at all is getting to me.

[One Day]

(((Mishka))))

Just stopping by to say hello. I hope you're OK and am thinking of you,

L. xx

[mishka422]

Thanks Lisa! I'm ok. Busy trying to get my son ready to start school tomorrow. Overwhelmed with everything I have to do on my own now. I just went over my schedule for the next week and figured out that I will not be home from about 7:00a until after 9:30p every darned day! This is the outlook until the end of October!!!!! The thought is making me exhausted!

[MichelleLT]

Just take it one day at a time.

Don't let the possible future get you down.

((((Mishka))))

[mishka422]

I'm trying to not think about it. If I concentrate on how little time I am going to have to do the daily things (cooking, cleaning, laundry, get the oil changed, etc.) I'll puke!

My son has karate as many nights per week as we can make it to (which is now looking like only 2-3), football practice every day after school, and homework (usually at least 2 hours every night). I have parent's meetings, meetings for my new business, and my group on Thursday night. I was going to join a singles (EEECK!!!) bible study on Friday nights (because I have NO social life) but I don't think I can do it!

[MichelleLT]

Lol

Yeah, don't think about it. Just deal with it as it comes. And make sure you take lots of down time on the weekends.