Thank you all so much for your response. You don't know what you all mean to me! You have helped me so much.
I really haven't done anything today. I did lay out in the sun for a little while. It's not too humid so that made it nice. Although that is something H & I used to do together but I can't stop doing stuff b/c we did everything together.
BND: I love this link! Thank you for posting it.
I'm just so sad & miss him so bad. This is totally not like him & I do believe 100% he is in MLC. I'm not really angry at him b/c I have this unconditional love. I do think deep down he still loves me, I just don't think you can turn something like that off. He may never realize it tho or never let me know. I just can't believe I will never see him again, this is killing me! He is my family, this is such a nightmare!
