I think it is also hard being around couples too. My sister and her boyf are really happy at the moment doing their house up etc and they are both so lovely to me, it is just hard being round couples that are happy. Even being with my parents today, and they aren't amazingly happy at the moment, was difficult because even thought they are going through an empty nest tough patch they still rely on each other and are able to laugh together. I miss that couple commeradery. I just find it quite difficult, it seems a bit silly really as I don't begrudge other people happiness, I just want a chunk of it!
It's nice to be able to talk here. If I talk to others about my feelings they move onto h talk and they just don't understand. I feel it's difficult to say to people 'I feel lonely' as they think it is a permanent thing caused by my h and it isn't, it is just tonight. Then it goes onto blame etc. I know they are just feelings but loneliness is a pretty powerful one!
