Well, i've had a nice weekend overall. I nearly stayed in by myself but I forced myself to go out and now I'm glad I did. I stayed the night at my sisters and we had a good laugh together and then I went round to my parents for Sunday lunch which was really nice. The thing is now that my Mum has just dropped me back, suddenly coming home to an empty house is really difficult. It's easier if you just get used to it and don't have company but I know that would be really not right either. I can't hide away.
I texted him last night just to tell him there was an amazing prom on - it was his favourite type of music but I haven't heard anything. I did it without expectation but I think it is just now I am thinking about it as I am lonely. I am missing him a lot at the moment and am just trying to understand that he doesn't want any contact with me. That is difficult to deal with when you miss someone so much.
I don't really know now whether to stay dark and see if he contacts me about rearranging another meeting or not? I really don't understand why he finds it so difficult to see me or contact me. It just all seems a little immature. I know I shouldn't compare but other peoples spouses talk to them at least about practical stuff. I am trying to be patient but I just don't understand it.
